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FOR GOD'S SAKE, CHEW YOUR FOOD PROPERLY!!!! AND CUT YOUR MEAT IN PIECES AT LEAST SMALLER THAN YOUR OWN TOUNGE BEFORE YOU EAT IT!!!!

For crying out loud, the first death to happen during MY WATCH, and the guy was already dead before they brought him in. We tried to get him out, once we got the humongous piece of pork out of his windpipe, but.... like I said, he was already gone before I got to him.


On only slightly related news, Wii-Boxing may be the most therapeutical video game ever!!!! (and yes, I got myself a Wii. I am a cliche geek girl, what can I say? XD)

So I still can't actually get started on  my job hunt, still expecting my last grades to come up sometime this week month sometime soon.

BUT I just got an email from the medicin secretary back in my university, telling me there will be a position opening in a small town hospital not far from where I live. It will be available to apply sometime NEXT week, so I could be ready to apply myself by then.

The good part? It's basically the best job a doctor fresh out of internship could ask for. It's stable, great pay, and in three to six years time I'm almost guaranteed a scholarship to get my specialisation.

The bad part? THE HOURS SUCK!!! I have to visit hospital patients in the morning, do clinic in the afternoon and I get both a 12 hour shift AND a 36 hour shift every single week, many times those will fall on weekends, and...

*sigh* I've spent the past two years saying I would never do 36 hour shifts again, even if they payed me. I wanted to HAVE A LIFE after my internship, and I'm only looking forward to getting a paycheck so I can finally take yoga lessons, and learn french, and go to the movies whenever I want, and to the theater and concerts, and meet people outside a hospital for once, and that's not going to happen if I work like this.... I DON'T WANT THIS JOB!! But.... it's there, you know? It's what I SHOULD be doing, even if I DON' T WANT to do it.

The funny thing? There's no one pressuring me anyway!! Not my parents, not anyone. I can apply to anywhere I want to and my folks would just be happy I have a job, simple as that. So, it's actually ME pushing this onto myself. I'm the one that feels I should do this. And that SUCKS!

I'll probably end up not going after this position, and berating myself for it for the next 6 months. Why do I have to be the one that thinks I don't do enough??.... I'm much harder to run away from.

Really.... weird week. Started out OK, I'm currently in one of the least watched over- rooms in the hospital, and I kinda like working alone. I feel self-suficient, you knw? I'm good at this, I think.

But I'm so effing tired!! Yesterday (Friday) I went to work at 8 am as usual, didn't have time to come home to lunch so I just got something on the street, and since I had mu short-shift I didn't leave the hospital 'till past 11 at night!!! *sigh* I didn't even turn on mu computer last night, just ate and crashed in bed. And this morning of course I had the saturday-rounds to go to, but never mind because NOW I HAVE A WEEKEND!!!!! At last....

Also, my great.aunt (who's basically my grandma) broke her hip las week, and yesterday she was admitted to the hospital. MY HOSPITAL!!! I've seen so many things go wrong here, I'm honestly half scared half freaked out to have her here. *sigh*

Anyways, I'm off to lunch now. See ya all!!

PS: quinby !!! I just got the postcard I promised, I should be mailing it next week.

If I'm only 4 weeks away from finals, my final finals in fact..... why on earth did I just spend an entire afternoon surfing through the TV-tropes wiki??!!! Just, ....why? WHY?!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* I'd say I'll procrastinate tomorrow, but it's not even funny anymore.

Wikis will suck one's brain out, yes they will. But it was good. XDDD

Sleep now, more procrastination tomorrow.

The bad thing about being stressed out with work, only 5 weeks away from finals?? I have a goddamn shift tomorrow SUNDAY, and then next SATURDAY, so no real weekends for me for the next two friggin weeks.

The good thing?? With so little time to eat I'm actually at a good enough weight I can go shopping and like the way I look in new clothes!!! I just got two new sweaters and a couple of pants that look great on me, and it's been a really long time since I've been able to say that XDD

Oh well, I'm off to sleep now so I can get up tomorrrow SUNDAY and go to WORK..... *grumblegrumble....* FIVE MORE WEEKS!!!!

And to those not-northamerican, like myself.... meh, be happy anyway, the news networks command you!!!! XDD

OK, so I'm feeling a lot better, not sad, and less sleep-deprived. Last weekend I went to the lake to visit my parents, and it was fun. I don't think I'll have time to go again next weekend, but we'll see.

As for work, the next 9 weeks cannot go by fast enough!!! I mean it, I just want OUT!! Goddamn patients with very old age and terminal diseasses we can do nothing about.... I wan't to leave this hospital, like yesterday. *sigh* I guess 9 weeks is not that long, and I do need the time to start study. I'm just effing tired of it. Oh, and I did choose the wrong rotation to quit smoking.... I'll stop by the end of March, promise!!!

On other news, TRC 209? Made of WIN!!!! And OP 528?? Luffy RULZ!!! (and so does Ace....*sigh*)

That's all for now, I have to run back to work. Oh, I almost forgot!!!

did you get your unicorn yet??

Posting from my uni's library!!

I have a class on basic reanimation in about 12 minutes, and should be studying, but what the heck? I'm bored. And my stupid brother woke me up at two in the morning last night because he was frying up some.... food thing, and he's noisy and the smell was gross.

Anyways, I do feel better than last Monday, and I just ate some pizza, so all is good. Still hoping I can get out of friday's night shift, though.

I feel like crap right now, so don't expect much sense from this entry.

( Read and tell me I'm not being stupid... )

Say, I need something funny to cheer me up right now..... any fun links anyone wants to share?? Even lolcats would be welcome.

I PASSED MY NATIONAL MEDICAL EXAM!!!!!

For anyone who cares, the national medical exam is like the "passing the bar" test for doctors in my country. (am I using that term right?? oh well...) Since it's only given once a year, and I graduate in three months, I could take mine last November with the rest of my graduating class.

AND I PASSED!!!  I didn't get the highest score, but I did decently well enough. So YEEY!!!! *celebrates..... then collapses and falls asleep because of her long shift yesterday*

(Oh, yeah... Yesterday, Sunday, I had a 24 hour shift. It was long, sligtlhy boring because not much happened during the day, and annoying because we got like four calls after 2am because of really silly things.)

I'm exhausted, monday's shift SUCKED!! And I'm so stressed out after only two weeks of internal medicine, I'm having trouble sleeping. Last night (and this was the night right after the 24 hour shift of doom) I actually had to take something to sleep all I needed to. I hate doing that!!

But, today we only worked half a day, it's christmas eve, I'm with my parents, and tomorrow I can sleep all day if I want!! (That and make a ppt for a case presentation I have friday.... oh well, details)

So all things considered, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

I would post something like a card or gift, but I lack any artistic abilities, so..... huggles and eggnog all around??

OK, so the date was.... not as great as I thought it would be.

( LJ cut from hell )

Oh well, I'll leave it as friends for now. Even if my mum sais I am too picky. (Although even she said I was right after I told her about everything). I dunno, maybe I am picky.... there must be a reason why this was my first date in three years... but is it too much to ask for a guy who's a little bit more mature than I am??

On totaly unrelated news, I am really worried about a friend of mine. About a year into depression treatment, she still isn't stable at all. And next week we start Internal Medicine... I don't want her to fall behind again, but i honestly don't know what I could do to help her.... *sigh*

I'm finally done with my pediatric hospital rotation, and that means NO MORE 24HR SHIFTS 'TILL DECEMBER!!! WOOT!!!

The bad part?? I have my final exams next week, starting tomorrow.... and I am SO not ready for them. It's one written test, two practical exams, and one last oral exam, everything ending by thursday.  I should be studying!!!!

Why am I still here, you ask? Well.... my last shift was Friday night, which meant I spent all Saturday sleeping it off. Then I wake up early today, only to encounter THE MOTHER OF ALL MIGRAINES!!! Ugh.... it had been a good couple of months since I last woke up with one of those, and I did not miss it one bit. Luckily it only lasts like 3 or 4 hours, then I had lunch, and then I had to go to vote!! (we're having city mayor and city council elections today) So, it's 4pm on Sunday, I have my first practical exam tomorrow, and I still haven't started studying!!!!!

*sigh*..... honestly? it's not the first time this happens to me, and I still always do well enough on my finals.... still, I'm so nervous!!! I don't want to have to take my oral exam a second time, like I did on surgery.... then again, pediatricians are a lot more understanding than surgeons, so I shouldn't worry that much. And I do know all my bases..... it's just the short term memory thing that escapes me. But really, who cares how many calories a bottle of milk has, compared to breast milk??....*sigh*

Whiny rant warning: The following rant is full of whines, consider yourselves warned.

( whinerantcrybabywhine )

/end rant.

On the bright side, next week I'm off to periferic pediatrics, so I'm only coming back to the hospital for shifts. And come November (and assuming I pass my finals) I have 5 week off. The first long vacations I've had in OVER TWO YEARS, WOOT!!!!! So, yey September's done?? XD

Since I'm bored, sleepy, have a hectic week ahead of me, am currently attempting to finish off a ppt for Thursday since I have ER shift tomorrow..... I have decided to post pictures of my pets!!!!!
( Watch and go awwwwww )
Well, that's it really. Not much to say here, other than I'm really tired of this damn hospital and this damn 24hr shifts and I'm really looking forward to my november vacation. Better get back to work now, I guess...

( On Holidays )

( On Holidays and Shifts!!! )

( On Facebook.....;; )
As a last note: I should NOT have doubted Oda.... this week's One Piece is made of FUN and WIN, and Oda is getting a shrine right between my CLAMP shrine and my Gainax shrine.

That's all.

EDIT: last TRC finally out.... Kurogane and Fai still exist, WOOT!!!!! Now damn it Syaoran, stop monologing and tell us what the hell is going on already!!! I need to understand what the hell you did to time and continuity!!!!

I'M DONE WITH OBGYN!!!! DONE, I TELL YOU!!!!!!

I aced my last final, and it is OOOOVEEEEEEER!!!!!!!!!! *does happy dance all around her room*

I can't believe I actually have over a week free for wasting my time as best as I can, with no self-guilt about it!!! And my parents and uncle-aunts are going to some hotsprings for like three days, wich is just awesome!!! Now, if I could just make it snow while we're there....

*giggles* I'm so relieved. I was scared I'd have to take the theorical final again, just like I had to with surgery.... bad news is, my best friend is the one who has to take it over again this time. Oh well, I'm sure she'll pass it next time, like I passed surgery last year.

Now I'll go pass out for a while, and then it is PARTY TIMEZ!!! So, see ya around in the internetz!!! (now I actually have the time)

(list of things to do while on vacation, sometime today or tomorrow.... expect a spork XD)

It's really been a long time since I updated here, and I'd like to say it's because I've been taking time off the internetz. Today was the beggining of my final exams week, as I'm done with the ObGyn work. I really should've been studying my ass off..... but....

I GOT SUCKED INTO THE SACRIFICES ARC FANFIC, AND IT IS EATING MY BRAIN!!!!!

I started like week and a half ago, I think, and I'm already on chapter 58 of Freedom and Not Peace. That's the FOURTH frigging book!!! I said I like obsessive reading, but this is a bit much.

But I'll be damned, the thing is well written. And the story is really compelling, the concept of Vates and the webs is incredibly interesting, and the characters feel very real (even if Harry is powerful enough to be a Stu, he's so damn messed up it's hurtful!!), and Draco is the sweetest needy smug git ever XD, and Evan Rosier is so intriguing, and....

Well, like I said, the thing is eating my brain XD

The good thing?? I'm actually doing fine on my exams!! I have great grades on every practical rotation, and today was my first practical exam and I did well. The next practical is on wendsday, and the theorical final is on Thursday. So YEY!!! I was right not to stress myself so much after all, I know what I need to know already XDDD

Now I think I'll catch up on some rest (yes, I haven't slept that much, because I did try to study ^^), and I'll do my last read of Obstetrics tonight and tomorrow.

 Good news: I just finished my last day of out-of-city hospital rotation, and won't have to take an hour long bus ride back and forth to work every day any more!!!

Bad news: TOMORROW IS SATURDAY AND I HAVE EMERGENCY SHIFT!!!! gha.... after having my 4 month relaxing period after surgery, I had forgotten how exhausting having 24 hour shifts every six days really was. And after my midwife three weeks were over, going back to "every six days" was kind of a relief!!! But now.... I have six more weeks of ObGyn, and then 4 months of pediatrics, and after a 5 week break, 4 more months of internal medicine..... ALL WITH 24 HOUR SHIFTS!!!!

*sigh* I really miss being a student... I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!...... actually, right now I'd settle for having Saturday off work.

PS: I just checked, and One Piece 500 is already up, woot!!!! The story is really getting good and intense again. Also, I just finished all the chapters done for a really good OP fic called "Crossed".... it's long and good, but the last chapter was kinda... like I expected more? I dunno... it's not finished yet, so nevermind.

PS2: guardians-song is making me feel guilty I haven't done more of my Veritas sporking ^_^;

On an unrelated note: I must be insane. But then again, my friends are crazier than me. It's Thursday night, we all have to go to work tomorrow, but we're meeting in an hour to celebrate a friend's b-day. In a bar!! Starting at 10pm!!! I have to get up early tomorrow, I have to study a lot before Sunday, because I have a 24 hour shift then, and the doctors will grill us on Monday. I'm feeling seriously sleep deprived.... but it's been way too long since I had a drink with my friends XD

Ah well, you're only young once, right? And this IS my last year as an intern...