marynyu

OK, so here comes the promised rant, because my weekend did NOT help me blow off steam. Basicaly, I got together with my friends friday, and when we went out that night to have dinner someone broke the window of their car and run off with my over-night bag. I swear the car window costs more than what was on that bag, but still, it sucked. And today, after a fun day of shopping and fangirling with my friend, in wich I got a new and bigger bag... a can of coke explodes in the damn bag, soaking a few new clothes and a couple stuffed animals I bought for a friends b-day!!! And because I was cleaning it up I almost missed my bus!!!! *sighheadlaptop* Not the best way to end the trip, but whatever.

But that was not what I wanted to rant about!! OK, here it goes:

( After six months on the job I can testify: The human race is made of lose )

So, my big call for help here, or at least a fresh set of eyes: It is normal to lose one's trust in the human race when put in the real world, right? Or am I becoming a cynic to soon?? Is it the same everywhere, or did I just draw the short straw with the work enviroment here??

Because I liked being able to think the best of everyone I meet. I loved being that way, and it hurts that I'm losing that part of me. Or maybe I was just to naive for my own good, I dunno...

*sigh* I'm tired, sleepy and anxious. I hate being anxious and sleepy at the same time!!!!

Moving to my own place this weekend, I should really stop scheduling big life-changes to the time of the month I'm PMSing.... that, and my mom sounds more tired and sad everytime I talk to her, to the point when I don't really want to go visit next week, I'm scared she'll look a mess and I'll feel guilty. And I don't want to feel guilty since none of my family's problems are my fault. It's just, I'm not there!! I can't help.

*sigh*

I can't even blame sleep-deprivation, I'm shift free this week. I've been sleeping a lot.

I think I need chocolate.

So, I'm sorry to post this kinda stuff here, but I need some advice, romantic advice. Or maybe all I need is a sounding board.

And for reasons that will become quite clear if any of you, my very awesome f-list, click the cut.... I really can't talk about this with my RL friends.

( In the begginig, I fell in love )

Aaaanyway, now to the second part of this mess.

( And then, someone says they love me... )

( Then the love train leaves me behind )

( And THEN I turn into a Hollywood cliche... *headlaptop* )

*sigh* Seriously, I have headlaptoped so much my forehead looks like a keyboard. It's just so frustrating to feel so lonely and hormonal, that I'm comparing my self to frigging Bridget Jones!!!! *headlaptop* Can I really be so much of a cliche?!!

So, help? Advice? Rants about how silly and/or selfish I'm being?? All is welcome, really!!!!

DEAR GOD THIS IS SO MUCH LONGER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE!!!

I feel like crap right now, so don't expect much sense from this entry.

( Read and tell me I'm not being stupid... )

Say, I need something funny to cheer me up right now..... any fun links anyone wants to share?? Even lolcats would be welcome.

Whiny rant warning: The following rant is full of whines, consider yourselves warned.

( whinerantcrybabywhine )

/end rant.

On the bright side, next week I'm off to periferic pediatrics, so I'm only coming back to the hospital for shifts. And come November (and assuming I pass my finals) I have 5 week off. The first long vacations I've had in OVER TWO YEARS, WOOT!!!!! So, yey September's done?? XD