Overstressed Squirrel

Slept for like ten hours straight, feeling much better now.

2009-11-14T19:04:14Z

And before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HALFLIGHT!!!!!!

Also, about this week's Supernatural: So maybe it was filler, and yes, maybe the handy plot-device to move towards The Colt (tm) seems like a dumb poorly written Deus ex Machina, but........ I CAN'T STOP GIGGLING ABOUT THIS!!! The entire thing was made of win, and Sammy makes my heart get warm and fuzzy all over again (wich hasn't happened since season three). And by god, I have to admit if I was at a convention and met the real Dean Winchester, I would try and hit that with all I could think off! So, can't really blame Becky for giving Sam the googly eyes. Good thing Chuck finally had something good happen to him though, the poor guy. And a forum for talking about Homoerotic Subtext?? PFFFT KRIPKE WINS AT LIFE!!!!! Oh dear, I love the meta humor so much.

*Runs away to try and fix the first part of my chapter for sporkage*

Oh fine, I admit it....

2009-11-13T02:33:59Z

Being a new grown up and becoming disilusioned with the world or the human race or whatever, still sucks less that being a teenager and feeling confused and scared shitless.

I'm home, and I just had a really good talk with my 14 year old niece. On addition to the usual talk about school and family, and our cautionary-tales-relatives, she had something she wanted to tell me. Or I guess she needed to tell me; she's the one that brought it up. A couple of months ago, she kissed a girl. And liked it. I asked, and she has kissed boys before too. And she's not sure what she likes or what the hell. Add to that a disfunctional family and being raised by really old-fashioned grandparents, and yeah, she was freaking out a bit. So, I had to tell her that no one expects her to be sure what she likes at age 14, and she has time to figure it out; and that at least I would be perfectly fine with whatever she decides, boys, girls or both. And I think me telling her about my one kiss with my girl-best friend back when I was 22 helped calm her down too. At least she's not feeling like a freak anymore. Well, anymore that usual, at least.

So yeah, I got a little perspective back. As much as losing some of the childish naivete I still had sucked, at least I already know myself pretty well. And I remember now, being a teenager did suck worse.

I do feel like maybe I should've stayed here, find a job closer to home.... I mean, she hasn't seen her therapist in at least three months, she's about to repeat eight grade because of poor assistance, and she is failing math; my mom has basicaly given up and my dad is just frustrated with her. And if I'm the only one she feels she can trust like this, I really would've liked to stay closer... *sigh* I dunno.

Rants'r us

2009-11-08T23:26:29Z

OK, so here comes the promised rant, because my weekend did NOT help me blow off steam. Basicaly, I got together with my friends friday, and when we went out that night to have dinner someone broke the window of their car and run off with my over-night bag. I swear the car window costs more than what was on that bag, but still, it sucked. And today, after a fun day of shopping and fangirling with my friend, in wich I got a new and bigger bag... a can of coke explodes in the damn bag, soaking a few new clothes and a couple stuffed animals I bought for a friends b-day!!! And because I was cleaning it up I almost missed my bus!!!! *sighheadlaptop* Not the best way to end the trip, but whatever.

But that was not what I wanted to rant about!! OK, here it goes:

I have always been a trusting person, I like thinking the best of people. And when I came to work here, I didn't know anyone, and I really felt like I could get along with everyone, they were all supportive and nice. Just nice, you know? I trusted everyone.

Six months later, and I think I could still trust in FIVE of the people I work with. Everyone else has.... dissapointed me. And I do believe I'm open minded here, but c'mon: All the married man in the clinic are having one or more affairs, I think only one is safe so far. And everyone in this place KNOWS. We have our good share of alcoholics, a couple who come to work drunk, and when you work with people's health.... yeah, no. Out of the four man in here who I know are gay, only one is doing it right, Because I think getting drunk at someone's wedding and frenching the groom (and this is a man who is also married to some woman), or attacking a straight coworker in the bathroom would qualify as doing it wrong, no matter the gender of sexual orientation. Also, breaking up with your girlfriend because she's only a tech, and now that you will become a male nurse you want something better?? Yeah, shitty move. One of the doctors in here gets fresh with the female patients, and that's why he bought and placed locks on his office door. One paramedic performs ilegal eutanasics and abortions, wich I'm not saying it's not an iffi subject because it is, but: A: it's still ilegal here. and B: if they were legal, they should be performed by a frigging DOCTOR not a paramedic. And one of the two ER paramedics who I work with everyday, she's all smiles and laughs with me, never has said a bad word; just listening to her talk or bark at anyone who works below her makes me ill; and she doesn't bark at me only because I'm "the doctor" Eeeeugh!!!! I fucking HATE that.

So, my big call for help here, or at least a fresh set of eyes: It is normal to lose one's trust in the human race when put in the real world, right? Or am I becoming a cynic to soon?? Is it the same everywhere, or did I just draw the short straw with the work enviroment here??

Because I liked being able to think the best of everyone I meet. I loved being that way, and it hurts that I'm losing that part of me. Or maybe I was just to naive for my own good, I dunno...

New operating sistem, ahoy!!

2009-11-08T05:04:47Z

I just got Windows Seven on my laptop, and I'm starting to get used to it. My first impresion?

SO MUCH better than Vista. Or should I say, less annoying than Vista. Then again, anything is less annoying than Vista.
Prettier than XP, sure.
I still likes Windows XP better, I miss it!! It was so much simpler.

Still, I can use this much better than Vista, and I swear my comp is like 50% faster now. Of course, that may be the freshly rebooted thing. We'll see.
PS: I had a shitty week, and I think I need to rant about something. Probably will do tomorrow night, because I'm hoping tomorrow I'll let out some steam and come out less emo. I would like to know if anyone would even read it though, because I could use some perspective, and the age of most of my f-list is just right to see where I'm coming from here.... I hope.

Stolen from haflight007

2009-11-08T01:20:40Z

***********FOODOLOGY***********

1. What is your salad dressing of choice?
Just plain lemon juice and salt

2. What is your favourite sit-down restaurant?
This pizza place called "Boccato". the best pizza crust EVER!!

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
Noodles/spagethi (and I have done this, btw)

4. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
MUSHROOMS RULE!!!

5.What do you like to put on your toast?
Butter and maybe ham or pate.

***********TECHNOLOGY***********

1. How many televisions are in your house?
Just the one.

2. What colour cell phone do you have?
It's blue and shiny!!!

3. How many computers are in your house?
Just the one

4. Have any idea how many Megahertz your computer has?
Ehm....how many whutzzies now??

***********BIOLOGY***********

1. Are you right-handed or left-hand?
Right.

2. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Two tonsils, two wisdom tooth, and thre moles.

3. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
...I don't remember. My backpack count??

4. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
By a blow to the head, no. By alcohol yes. By anesthetics, yes.

***********BULLCRAPOLOGY***********

1. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Depends, if I'll die young and leave to many people behind, I would not like to know. If I go like when I'm 70, all my kids grown up and stuff settled, sure, I'd like to know!!

2. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
I like my name a lot.

3. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for £1000?
It would pay for the emergency surgery for the bleeding ulcer it would give me XDD

***********DUMBOLOGY***********

1. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
What are flip flops??

2. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
When they brought in a drunken ass to the ER...

3. Last person you talked to?
One of my best friends who I am sitting with right now. He's saying something about sporks.

4. Last person you hugged?
My other best friend.

***********FAVORITOLOGY***********

1. Season?
Fall.

2. Holiday?
Christmas

3. Day of the week?
Saturday, hands down!!

4. Month?
December. (keep in mind, it's summer time here then)

***********CURRENTOLOGY***********

1. Missing someone?
The bulk of my freaky friends group.

2. Mood?
Sad.

3. What are you listening to?
Computer noises.

4. Watching?
Uhm.... my LJ update page??

***********RANDOMOLOGY***********

1. First place you went this morning?
Panguipulli, we went for lunch/dinner.

2. What's the last movie you saw?
REPO, the genetic opera and I LOVED IT!!!! god, that thing was freaky.

3. Do you smile often?
Yes, a lot actually.

***********OTHEROLOGY***********

1. Do you always answer your phone?
When I hear them in time, yes.

2.It's 4 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
One of my new friends who has ~~a bit of a~~ huge drinking problem.

3. If you could change your eye colour what would it be?
Brighter green. Right now they're just sort of hazel.

4. What flavour do you add to your drink at Sonic?
.....what's Sonic???

5. Do you own a digital camera?
digital video camera.... it takes pictures too!!

6. Have you ever had a pet fish?
Nopes. Have had hamsters, though.

7. Favourite Christmas song(s)
"Little drummer boy"

8. What's on your wish list for your birthday?
Just had a birthday..... and not much really. I would love to get some cool book I haven't read yet.... maybe a Sherlock Holmes collection.

9. Can you do push ups?
AHAHAHAHAHAHA....... no

10. Can you do a chin up?
See above.

11. Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Both?? Depends on the mood.

12. Do you have any saved texts?
Lame texts, yeah.

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
Nope.

14. Do you have an accent?
Southern chilean. It's kind of a sing-song voice, or so I've been told.

15. What is the last song to make you cry?
I haven't cried for a song, ever. "Look at you" from Screaming Trees does make me tear up every time, though.... that scene from Supernatural, on that werewolve episode..... sooo saaaad!!!! *wibbles*

16. Plans tonight?
Drinks in a pub with my friends, and then watching Wolverine-Origins.

17. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
I think I may be getting there.

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
Coke, sandwich, bus ticket.

19. Have you ever been given roses?
Yes.

20. Current worry?
I may be growing disilussioned and jaded at a rapid pace, and I really don't want to.

21. Current hate right now?
My f-ing malfunctioning bathroom??

22. Met someone who changed your life?
MY FREAKY GANG OF GEEKY FRIENDS!!!!

23. How will you bring in the New Year?
Working. Have ER shift on the first.

24. What song represents you?
Right now, "Hand in my Pocket" by Alanis Morrissete.

25. Name three people who might complete this.
.......I say.....

26. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Reliving my teenage years without all the angst of my teenage brain, I would love that.

27. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Nope.

28. Does anyone love you?
Yes.

29. Ever had someone sing to you?
Nope.

30. When did you last cry?
........I don't remember. Two months ago I think, I had a panick attack.

31. Do you like to cuddle?
Yeeees!!!!!

32. Have you held hands with anyone today?
Nope.

33. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
Five to six year old friendships, is that considered old or new??

34. Do you like pulpy orange juice?
Fresh? Hells yeah!!!

35. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Isn't the world gonna end in three???

It's my birthday, and I'll write if I want to!!!

2009-11-04T13:38:31Z

Well, I'm 26 years old today. I'm not sure wether to feel young or old right now, but it's kinda cool. And the best present? WE'RE ON STRIKE TODAY!! So I'm stuck at work NOT working, and have been on my laptop for the entire morning by now. Will keep going with my nano thingy. We do go back to work tomorrow, so I'm not that annoyed as lazy today.

Oh, and this afternoon there will be cake.

(Unrelated, but: it's Frigging November, it's supposed to be spring!!! It shouldn't be this cold, and there shouldn't be sleet falling outside!!! F-ing weird weather, I swear.)

Well, this explains it

2009-11-03T17:00:59Z

Please disregard my previous emo post, as I am right now suffering from the evil cramps from hell. Fucking hormones...

*goes back to working on nano*

624 words so far....damn, I am a slow writer.

I guess I need to vent a little

2009-11-02T23:05:22Z

I'm feeling linda sad right now. Wich really sucks, because I actually had great weekend shift, you know?!! It was slow, I had fun with the people I work with, and I got a lot of reading done. (mostly fanfics, wut?) I actually woke up today feeling rested and happy to go to work. Again.

Then this afternoon I find a group of friends from work, and I tell them to come by my place Wednesday for some birthday cake. Everything is fine and well. And as I walk home, I start feeling bad... then it hit me.

This will be the first birthday I spend away from home, ever. Wich means this is the first birthday my mom won't be the first to give me a happy birthday hug. EVER. The first time she won't surprise me with a special b-day pizza or an entire family of stuffed animals in my room.

And yeah, it means I'm a whiny baby, and I rely on my mom too much, and after 26 years this is supposed to be a normal thing, being away from my family like this..... but it still stings. It kinda hurts, actually.

I guess I'm just feeling lonely. *sigh* Whatever, I'll just go drown my sorrows on noodle soup and ice tea, and maybe spork a little before trying my luck at the second chapter of my nano-thingy. Sorry to spam you with emo!!!

And THIS is why I love the Supernatural fandom.

2009-11-02T02:37:37Z

Not only does it have a lot of angst and hot prons, but the crack possibilities are just..... if this was canon, the following dialoge wold actually be in character, I swear...

"Dean, you must understand, when I raised you from Hell you were destroyed. Mentally and physically."

"Yeah, and what the fuck does this have to do with your handprint on my arm?"

"It was necessary to heal you."

"Heal me?"

"Yes, heal you."

"By having an angelic rapturous orgasm?"

"Not exactly - "

This is also why I'm quickly falling in love with Cas/Dean.... even more than Wincest.... it's the pretty blue eyes, I swear they hipnotize me or something!!

I've got a theory, it could be a Sue...

2009-10-31T23:36:01Z

I've been watching (and singing to) the musical episode from Buffy, you know, "Once More With Feeling". It's my all times favorite, even though I'm not really a fan of the sixth season... it was better than the fifth, but still, I disgress.

I once wrote a HP fic based on this episode; Harry was Buffy, Dumbles was Giles and Xander/Anya were Ron/Hermione. I think Dawn was Ginny, and Draco sang Spike's song, just because they look alike XDD. It was fun, but the forum I was a part off died and then my computer died and I never got to finish it.

Anyway, I've been thinking of my nanowrimo story, wich is going to be a Supernatural fanfic. Because, let's be realistic, I am not in a place where I can just start off with original fiction, I only joined so I would get my own writting ball rolling. And I'm using training wheels. And I think one of the chapters is going to be based on this Buffy episode too!!! ~~Truth is, I just wanna make Bobby sing "I've got a theory, it could be demons! A dancing demon, no, something isn't right here...".~~

The point to this ramble being... my fanfic will have a plot highly centered on a female OC.... yes, I'm afraid I'll be writing a Mary Sue for the next month. But her reason for being a Mary sue is kinda plot relevant.... just hear me out.

This season's plot, funny filler / character developing episodes aside, is the Apocalypse. Heaven and Hell fighting off on earth, and their most powerfull assets in this fight are the Winchester brothers. Basically, the side that gets their Winchester to say YES to either Michael or Lucifer first, probably has the war won. But the Winchester are stubborn, and now they are together and well hidden, and there's nothing on heaven or hell that can get them to become an angel's "meat suit" easily. And the agreement has to be willing, not forced. Them's the rules.

Enter my Sue. The show already has shown a number of psychics, of varying levels of power, some being born that way and some made by demonic intervention. Reading people and mind control have been used in show within this context. I'm using a particular kind of psychic, that would have a hereditary skill; now, because of Arianna Black I'm really uncomfortable calling them Empaths, but.... that's what they'd be. They would be able to see or feel in some way (I'm debating weather it's a visual or musical sense) the emotional state of anyone they see or talk too. This would be enhanced by physical contact. And the more time they spend with someone, the more they get to know them, the easier it is to read them accurately. And the main part: The more powerful ones would also be able to manipulate the emotions of other people; not really create an artificial feeling or emotional state, but enhance one emotion while dulling out the rest. It would be difficult to do so precisely, and if you want to push a person to DO something using this, it would require a very deep knowledge of the person you're trying to manipulate so you know what to bring forth to make them WANT to do what you need them to do.

Both Heaven and Hell know of this kind of psychics. And know they could be useful to make either Sam or Dean agree to be vessels. It's not really artificial emotions, just a strong form of manipulation, so it would still be technicaly a willing acceptance. That's all they need. So Hell finds this girl, powerful empath but not really awake to her power yet. Kidnap her, take her to hell and break her, she forgets who she is, or who her family was. Put her in the way of the Winchesters, let them rescue her. Maybe Heaven finds out they're doing this; they even help out. Now we have a hell-broken girl, who both Sam and Dean wil simpatyse with. They'll want to help her remember who she is so she can go back home. But it's a slow process, and she's traumatized, scared, having nightmares; Sam and Dean rescued her, and she can see they're good guys. She only feels safe with them. Dean's been to hell, he knows what it does to a soul; he won't be wiiling to just leave the girl on her own, or at Bobby's, when she starts crying and trembling if they're not around.

So she get's a sit in the Impala. Travels with them, slowly getting back who she was. And the brothers grow fond of her. Teach her how to fight and defend herself. At some point she even starts helping out at hunts. She becomes an honorary Winchester.

AND YES, I KNOW HOW MUCH OF A SUE THAT SOUNDS!!!

BUT; as it turns out, the emotional manipulation thing?? Find a strong enough empath, and she'll be able to do a very subtle style of manipulation, permanently not even knowing what she's doing. Without proper training, she won't be able to turn it off. Subconciously, she'd be constantly pushing the feelings of those around her to fit what she needs, what she wants. And my Sue is feeling lonely and scared, what she needs is two protective older brothers, and what she wants is a cute sexy protective boyfriend. (Dean, btw) What she wants, she gets. At some point, about half way through the story, she figures out this second part of her abilities, and she figures out what she could be doing to Sam and Dean. And she properly freaks out, thinking everything they've done for her was her doing, feels like crap and runs away.

Oh, and btw? By this point she already know enough about the Winchesters to properly manipulating them to do something; she just needs the proper training. Guess what she runs away to do.

So, what do you think?? Classic Sue, or do I have something slightly interesting here?? I think everyone does write a Sue at some point, just to get it out of their sistem, but still... ideas? comments?? Or come December, should I offer this up for sporking??

Speaking off!!!! *runs off to dust and polish her own spork*

I sometimes fear for my mental health....

2009-10-28T16:14:40Z

This is my torrent DL list right now: ]A lot of mst3k tv episodes, Repo, the Rocky Horror Picture Show and Plan 9 from Outer Space.... yes, all of them at the same time..... yes, by the time they finish DL I'll be on ER duty and sleep deprived....

Oh well, I never said I enjoyed being sane.

marynyu @ 2009-10-22T20:11:00

2009-10-22T23:24:22Z

I'm having the best day in a long time. See, I asked for a couple days off work, thursday and friday, and I came back to my parents house for a long weekend. Wich also means coming back to civilization!!! You know, movie theaters, good coffe, department stores. Hair salons.

Today I got my hair cut, and it looks really cute now. Then I fixed some mix up with the adress of my internet billing, and I finally got a cell-phone plan!! I also changed my cell. And it's pretty!!! I had lunch with my parents, talked and had much fun. And then in the afternoon I was browsing through a used-books fair and I run into my grandpa!!!! I hadn't seen him in ages, and we went to have some coffe and just talked for like three hours straight. ~~I also got "The Naked Ape", wich I've been meaning to read for a long time now.~~ Later tonight I'm going to have dinner at my favorite aunt's house.

Tomorrow I have to fix a couple more billing errors, and I have to ~~finally~~ pick up my official diplomas. Then I'll indulge myself in a little clothe shopping, I really need new shoes. And later I have an appointment with my old therapist; just have some things to talk about, and I finaly decided to take the time. Then grandpa is coming to our house to have dinner.

And then I call my best friends, and their coming to town too!!!! We may go out clubbing tomorrow night, and we're definetly having lunch and going to the movies on Saturday.

All in all, GOOD TIEMZ!!!

Set your doom clocks!!!

2009-10-21T00:50:05Z

Basically, if sometime in the future the CERN particle accelerator has managed to recreate a Higgs particle, this event will have been such an abomination that it might ripple backwards in time to stop the experiment before it happens. Wich may explain why CERN has had such a run of bad luck.

God, I love quantum physics madness.

meme

2009-10-14T19:18:39Z

Yanked from halflight007. Bold all the ones you've done, substract them from 100%...

01. Smoked yes
02. Drank alcohol Ohh yes
03. Cried when someone died. Grandma...
04. Been drunk. and in a "never again" kinda way...
05. Had sex. BUT NOT FOR LACK OF TRYING!! *sobs*
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 95%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up. hm,.. does drunken frottage in a dar pub count??
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school. .... and at my internship....
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store. ...when I was like 8...
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. but... GEEKY OTAKU FRIENDS ARE GUYS!!!

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 89%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house. .... remember my "never again" comment on being drunk??..... well, yeah.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger. some patients need it...
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 84%

31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn. ... does my ONE slashy lemon fic count??
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 80%

41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR:75%

51. Watched a person die. sort of comes with the job, y'know?
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy .
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 74%

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.... not well, but still.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 72%

71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 71%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months..... we were in the eight grade XD
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore .

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 67%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected with the "I love you like a sister" speech included
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

TOTAL: 64%

marynyu @ 2009-10-11T18:04:00

2009-10-11T21:11:41Z

Well, I'm bored..... I've been stuck in the ER since 8:30 this morning, still have 6 hours to go, and I haven't seen anything more interesting than a sore throat.

I haven't been to the Hetalia kink meme for a looong time (since the first kink_aid stopped updating in fact). So, my lovey f-list, I need links to any and all kink fics that you feel are link-worthy, please!!! (no angst for now, and smut is OK, nay, a must!! as no one else in here reads english anyway. XD)

Pretty please??? I'll give you waffles!!! With Maple Syrup!!!

EDITED because apparently boredom turns me into a typo making machine... I sounded like a lol-cat!!!

Again with the nine levels of hell....

2009-10-09T19:58:43Z

I was doing some research on the subject of hell for my NaNoWriMo idea, because I'm bored like that and I'm on duty 'till midnight today, and I found something rather cool...

In Maya mythology , Xibalbá is the dangerous underworld of nine levels ruled by the demons Vucub Caquix and Hun Came. The road into and out of it is said to be steep, thorny and very forbidding. Metnal is the lowest and most horrible of the nine Hells of the underworld, ruled by Ah Puch. Ritual healers would intone healing prayers banishing diseases to Metnal. Much of the Popol Vuh describes the adventures of the Maya Hero Twins in their cunning struggle with the evil lords of Xibalbá.

The Aztecs believed that the dead traveled to Mictlán, a neutral place found far to the north. There was also a legend of a place of white flowers, which was always dark, and was home to the gods of death, particularly Mictlantecutli and his spouse Mictlantecihuatl, which means literally "lords of Mictlán". The journey to Mictlán took four years, and the travelers had to overcome difficult tests, such as passing a mountain range where the mountains crashed into each other, a field where the wind carried flesh-scraping knives, and a river of blood with fearsome jaguars.

I wonder if nine is just such a charged number, or if the Mayan thought of it first. Still, kinda cool!! And the rivers of blood... where have I heard that before... the jaguars are a nifty addition, though!!!

Back to work I guess!!!.... running the ER with a slight fever and a runny nose, I wonder what level of hell that's considered as.... </whines>

Writer's Block: Job search

2009-10-09T01:16:33Z

Are you happy at your current job? Do you think there's such a thing as a dream job? What do you hope to be doing five or ten years from now? Are you working towards that goal?

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Yes I'm happy in my current job. It's stressful and tireing and sometimes monotonous, with really bad hours; my confidence in my own abilities goes up and down like the tides, and I swear human beings are the most stupid beings ever; but yeah, I like my job. It's challenging, and I usually get a good laugh from one or two patients a day which makes me feel good. And I like my coworkers, mostly.

Is it my dream job?.... I dunno.... my dream job would probably be to work on one of those travel-shows, where they take you to all this exotic places and pay you to stay at fancy hotels and eat weird food. Although, if we're talking DREAM job, I wanna be a wizard!!! Oh, or a ninja!!! XD

Now, 5 or 10 years from now I hope to be a pediatrician.... or maybe a pediatric psychiatrist, I'm not sure. And yeah, I'm mostly on my way. My current job allow's me to try out for specialization scholarships after three years on the public service, and guarantees me a job afterwards in the same service that sent me to study and paid for it. And I've been told we have a shortage of pediatricians, so yeey!! XD

marynyu @ 2009-10-08T00:50:00

2009-10-08T00:56:40Z

Well, I did it. I just signed up for NaNoWriMo.

Yup, I must be crazy. Let's see where this takes me, shall we?!!

Boy or Girl meme

2009-10-05T00:25:55Z

Am I more boyish or girlish?

YOUR BOY SIDE:

[ ] you love hoodies
[X] you love jeans
[X] dogs are better than cats
[ ] it's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[ ] you've played with/against boys on a team (In grade school.)
[ ] shopping is torture (If it's clothes shopping, yeah.)
[X] sad movies suck
[ ] you own a XBOX,
[X] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega
[X] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers (I was in love with Blue Ranger, does it still count?? ^^)
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[ ] gory movies are cool
[ ] you used to go to your dad for advice
[ ] you have at least 1 trophy of a sport (I guess Chemistry Olimpics do not count)
[X] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh/Pokemon
[X] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[ ] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[X] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[X] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[ ] sports are fun
[X] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[ ] you sleep at night with your socks on
[X] you have fished at least once

TOTAL= 11

YOUR GIRL SIDE

[X] you like to shop
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[ ] you wear the color pink
[ ] you go to your mom for advice
[X] you consider cheerleading a sport (Hey, I've never done it but it's HARD maan!!)
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[X] you like going to the mall
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[ ] you like wearing jewelery
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[ ] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] you don't like the movie Star Wars (ARE YOU KIDDING?!!)
[X] you are/were in gymnastics
[ ] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed (I get out of bed 10 minutes before I get in work, and still make it on time)
[X] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] you like wearing dresses
[ ] you like wearing body spray/deodorant
[ ] you like high heel shoes (OUCH)
[X] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything

TOTAL: 6

And if they had added a Nintendo Wii, I woul've been even more boyish.... WHY ARE ALL THE NERDY STUFF MADE TO BE BOYISH?!!!

The Wincest Drinking Game!!!

2009-10-03T18:34:39Z

Because I was way too bored last night, slightly feverish, and waiting for the latest Supernatural episode to download.

(btw, I'll post this to the Slash Talk comm, but I am expecting some html fail because I wrote this in word first, so sorry if the cut doesn't work and I spam your f-lists for a while)

Have a shot every time:

Dean feels guilty about feeling that way about his baby brother, and worries this is all HIS fault.
Have two drinks if it’s Sam the one feeling guilty, or if Sam thinks it’s all his fault because of the demon blood.
Have three drinks if Dean thinks he’s just not good enough for Sammy.

It takes a spell or some other supernatural gadget or weirdness for one of them to realize their feelings for each other.

One of them shoves the other one against a wall.

They have sex in or on the Impala.
Two drinks if they’re so horny they have to pull over by the side of the road, least they crash the car.

They have sex while one of them is still badly injured from a difficult hunt.
Two if there was patching up of the wounds or a shared shower beforehand.

Bobby figures out the boys are together, and is awkwardly supportive of them.
Two if he mentally curses Jon for raising the boys to mean everything for each other.

A demon taunts one or both of them about going to hell for being incestuous sinners.
Two drinks if angsty hurt ‘n comfort ensues.

They have brotherly banter as pillow talk.

It’s mentioned that Sam only went away to college because he was freaking out over his feelings for Dean.
Two drinks if it’s mentioned that Dean only let Sammy go away and never visited or called because he was freaking out over his own feelings towards him.

Dean claims he still can appreciate the aesthetical beauty of pretty girls even if he only wants to have sex with his manly brother.

Dean’s lips are described as pouty, fuckable, sinful, or kiss swollen.
Two if this is mentioned during a blowjob scene.

The phrase “chick flick moment” is mentioned.

Dean lets Sam fuck him because he’s used to always taking care of him and giving him everything he needs, ever since they were little kids.

Sam acts like a blushing virgin the first time they’re together.
Two drinks if it’s Dean who’s the blushing one.

Sam gets jealous over Dean flirting with some cute girl
Two drinks if it’s a cute waitress in a diner.
Three if Sam gets all bitchy and claims his territory in public.
Four if Dean gets off on it.

They use “jerk” and “bitch” as terms of endearment.

Comments and additions are love!!!

Glaarg (aka: I need fluff y'all!!)

2009-10-03T02:55:52Z

I'm sick, caught the flu I think. And I think when someone lives alone, it's practically necesary to feel home-sick when with the flu?? And by home sick of course I mean, I miss my mommy ^^;;

Anyways, at least I'm not on duty this weekend, so I'll just stay in bed 'till it gets better. But I just woke up form a nap and I'm not sleepy right now, so I'm kinda bored.

*makes puppy eyes* I'm asking for fanfic recs!!!! Anything funny or fluffy, PWP are great, epic fics also welcome, from Hetalia, Supernatural, Potter, Dr. Who, Torchwood or TRC.

Thanks!!!

Edit: THANKS SONY CHANNEL!!! "Robin hood, Man in Tights" just started. I effing love Mel Brooks movies!!!

marynyu @ 2009-09-29T13:52:00

2009-09-29T14:09:37Z

And I feel like crap...

Today I woke up feeling really well, damn it!! Second day on ER shift, doing fine. Then the parent of a patient come by, I saw his kid like two weeks ago on my LAST er shift, and when I saw him he was OK, just a cold. Then the kid started to get worse, the father brought him back (when I had already gone) and he was obstructed, needed oxigen and nebulizations and antibiotics.... and that was ONE HOUR after I had seen him.

I know that kids can change simptoms really fast. I know he wasn't obstructed when I saw him. I know he's doing fine right now. And the father that talked to me was really nice about it too, more concerned than angry. Then, why do I still feel like crap?!!

I know I have low self-confidence, but something like this shouldn't be enough to bring me down, damn it!! *sigh*

OK, I loved this...

2009-09-26T14:38:24Z

You know how some people still say "spare the rod, spoil the child"?? Well....

September 24, 2009 — Groundbreaking research suggests children who are spanked have lower IQs than those who are not, and that the difference is large enough to lower national IQ scores in countries where corporal punishment of children is routine.

Murray Straus, PhD, head of the Family Research Laboratory at the University of New Hampshire, Durham, told Medscape Psychiatry that his landmark 32-nation study of corporal punishment by parents and IQ also suggests that recent increases in IQ in many nations may have been partly a result of the worldwide decrease in the use of corporal punishment by parents.

"The longitudinal part of our study showed that children who were spanked the most fell behind the average IQ development curve, and those who were never spanked advanced ahead of the average," Dr. Straus said. He presented his results at the 14th International Conference on Violence, Abuse and Trauma in San Diego, California.

"That suggested to us that nations that use more corporal punishment of children would have more kids falling behind what they could have achieved, which might result in lower average national IQ, and that is what we found when we looked at data from 32 countries," he added.

To determine the longitudinal effects of spanking, Dr. Straus and colleague Mallie Paschall, PhD, senior research scientist at the Pacific Institute for Research and Evaluation, studied nationally representative US samples of 806 children aged 2 to 4 years and 704 children aged 5 to 9 years. Both groups were retested 4 years later.

The IQs of children aged 2 to 4 years who were not spanked were 5 points higher 4 years later than the IQs of those who were spanked. The IQs of children aged 5 to 9 years who were not spanked were 2.8 points higher 4 years later than the IQs of children the same age who were spanked.

On completely unrelated news, I just watched the new Supernatural episode, and I'm still fangasming.... DEAN/CASTIEL OTP OMGYEAH!!!!!! *dies of a giggle fit*

marynyu @ 2009-09-23T23:18:00

2009-09-23T23:21:08Z

God I hate migraines!!! I had to call in sick today, first time ever. Was drifting in and out all morning, and when I finally woke up I was upside down on the bed. And right now I wanted to check up on my f-list, but the computer glare is bringing the blasted migrain back, so I won't be loging back 'till tomorrow.

*takes two Tylenol*

wish me luck. See ya when my head starts working again!!!

marynyu @ 2009-09-22T18:45:00

2009-09-22T18:48:55Z

Taken from halflight007!! Please tell me:

YOU
1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?:
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. What do you love at the moment?:
10. Favourite place to spend time:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. The best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, or album:
4. A manga/anime (or many if you wish):

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.