marynyu

I feel like crap right now, so don't expect much sense from this entry.

So my parents just left today to go on their summer vacation, to the same lake we always went to since I can remember summer vacations. It's a beautiful place, very peacefull, and they're staying for a month. And I'm stuck here, working in a hospital, and home alone. Well, not alone.... my poodle is here, and my stupid brother with whom I never speak. So yeah... alone. I feel like such a child, but I really miss them!!! Especially my mother, she's the one I always talk to, about everything. I didn't even want to get home today.

Besides, two years ago when I was depressed, it was the same situation that sent me over the edge. I was in the same god-forsakken internship (internal medicine), and they left for summer and I stayed.... I lasted a week. And I know that's not gonna happen now, because now I'm not sick (I was already crying myself to sleep weeks before they left last time) but still, really bad memories.

I dunno if I'm being a child, or I'm just close to my mom and thus I miss her. The fact that I'm hormonal due to the first day of my frigging cicle doesn't help matters much. But I'm just sad. I want my mommy....*sigh* I'm 25 frigging years old, god damn it....

(considering my version of comfort food consists of chocolate and instant ramen, I think I'll gain a lot of weight before the month is over too...)

Say, I need something funny to cheer me up right now..... any fun links anyone wants to share?? Even lolcats would be welcome.