marynyu

And before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HALFLIGHT!!!!!!

Also, about this week's Supernatural: So maybe it was filler, and yes, maybe the handy plot-device to move towards The Colt (tm) seems like a dumb poorly written Deus ex Machina, but........ I CAN'T STOP GIGGLING ABOUT THIS!!! The entire thing was made of win, and Sammy makes my heart get warm and fuzzy all over again (wich hasn't happened since season three). And by god, I have to admit if I was at a convention and met the real Dean Winchester, I would try and hit that with all I could think off! So, can't really blame Becky for giving Sam the googly eyes. Good thing Chuck finally had something good happen to him though, the poor guy. And a forum for talking about Homoerotic Subtext?? PFFFT KRIPKE WINS AT LIFE!!!!! Oh dear, I love the meta humor so much.

*Runs away to try and fix the first part of my chapter for sporkage*

Being a new grown up and becoming disilusioned with the world or the human race or whatever, still sucks less that being a teenager and feeling confused and scared shitless.



So yeah, I got a little perspective back. As much as losing some of the childish naivete I still had sucked, at least I already know myself pretty well. And I remember now, being a teenager did suck worse.

I do feel like maybe I should've stayed here, find a job closer to home.... I mean, she hasn't seen her therapist in at least three months, she's about to repeat eight grade because of poor assistance, and she is failing math; my mom has basicaly given up and my dad is just frustrated with her. And if I'm the only one she feels she can trust like this, I really would've liked to stay closer... *sigh* I dunno.

OK, so here comes the promised rant, because my weekend did NOT help me blow off steam. Basicaly, I got together with my friends friday, and when we went out that night to have dinner someone broke the window of their car and run off with my over-night bag. I swear the car window costs more than what was on that bag, but still, it sucked. And today, after a fun day of shopping and fangirling with my friend, in wich I got a new and bigger bag... a can of coke explodes in the damn bag, soaking a few new clothes and a couple stuffed animals I bought for a friends b-day!!! And because I was cleaning it up I almost missed my bus!!!! *sighheadlaptop* Not the best way to end the trip, but whatever.

But that was not what I wanted to rant about!! OK, here it goes:

( After six months on the job I can testify: The human race is made of lose )

So, my big call for help here, or at least a fresh set of eyes: It is normal to lose one's trust in the human race when put in the real world, right? Or am I becoming a cynic to soon?? Is it the same everywhere, or did I just draw the short straw with the work enviroment here??

Because I liked being able to think the best of everyone I meet. I loved being that way, and it hurts that I'm losing that part of me. Or maybe I was just to naive for my own good, I dunno...

I just got Windows Seven on my laptop, and I'm starting to get used to it. My first impresion?

1. SO MUCH better than Vista. Or should I say, less annoying than Vista. Then again, anything is less annoying than Vista.
2. Prettier than XP, sure.
3. I still likes Windows XP better, I miss it!! It was so much simpler.

Still, I can use this much better than Vista, and I swear my comp is like 50% faster now. Of course, that may be the freshly rebooted thing. We'll see.
PS: I had a shitty week, and I think I need to rant about something. Probably will do tomorrow night, because I'm hoping tomorrow I'll let out some steam and come out less emo. I would like to know if anyone would even read it though, because I could use some perspective, and the age of most of my f-list is just right to see where I'm coming from here.... I hope.

Well, I'm 26 years old today. I'm not sure wether to feel young or old right now, but it's kinda cool. And the best present? WE'RE ON STRIKE TODAY!! So I'm stuck at work NOT working, and have been on my laptop for the entire morning by now. Will keep going with my nano thingy. We do go back to work tomorrow, so I'm not that annoyed as lazy today.

Oh, and this afternoon there will be cake.

(Unrelated, but: it's Frigging November, it's supposed to be spring!!! It shouldn't be this cold, and there shouldn't be sleet falling outside!!! F-ing weird weather, I swear.)

Please disregard my previous emo post, as I am right now suffering from the evil cramps from hell. Fucking hormones...

*goes back to working on nano*

624 words so far....damn, I am a slow writer.

I'm feeling linda sad right now. Wich really sucks, because I actually had great weekend shift, you know?!! It was slow, I had fun with the people I work with, and I got a lot of reading done. (mostly fanfics, wut?) I actually woke up today feeling rested and happy to go to work. Again.

Then this afternoon I find a group of friends from work, and I tell them to come by my place Wednesday for some birthday cake. Everything is fine and well. And as I walk home, I start feeling bad... then it hit me.

This will be the first birthday I spend away from home, ever. Wich means this is the first birthday my mom won't be the first to give me a happy birthday hug. EVER. The first time she won't surprise me with a special b-day pizza or an entire family of stuffed animals in my room.

And yeah, it means I'm a whiny baby, and I rely on my mom too much, and after 26 years this is supposed to be a normal thing, being away from my family like this..... but it still stings. It kinda hurts, actually.

I guess I'm just feeling lonely. *sigh* Whatever, I'll just go drown my sorrows on noodle soup and ice tea, and maybe spork a little before trying my luck at the second chapter of my nano-thingy. Sorry to spam you with emo!!!

Not only does it have a lot of angst and hot prons, but the crack possibilities are just..... if this was canon, the following dialoge wold actually be in character, I swear...

( I think this may redefine the meaaning of healing buttsecks ^^ )


This is also why I'm quickly falling in love with Cas/Dean.... even more than Wincest.... it's the pretty blue eyes, I swear they hipnotize me or something!!

I've been watching (and singing to) the musical episode from Buffy, you know, "Once More With Feeling". It's my all times favorite, even though I'm not really a fan of the sixth season... it was better than the fifth, but still, I disgress.

I once wrote a HP fic based on this episode; Harry was Buffy, Dumbles was Giles and Xander/Anya were Ron/Hermione. I think Dawn was Ginny, and Draco sang Spike's song, just because they look alike XDD. It was fun, but the forum I was a part off died and then my computer died and I never got to finish it.

Anyway, I've been thinking of my nanowrimo story, wich is going to be a Supernatural fanfic. Because, let's be realistic, I am not in a place where I can just start off with original fiction, I only joined so I would get my own writting ball rolling. And I'm using training wheels. And I think one of the chapters is going to be based on this Buffy episode too!!! Truth is, I just wanna make Bobby sing "I've got a theory, it could be demons! A dancing demon, no, something isn't right here...".

The point to this ramble being... my fanfic will have a plot highly centered on a female OC.... yes, I'm afraid I'll be writing a Mary Sue for the next month. But her reason for being a Mary sue is kinda plot relevant.... just hear me out.
( Plot summary and explanation for my Sue....  )

So, what do you think?? Classic Sue, or do I have something slightly interesting here?? I think everyone does write a Sue at some point, just to get it out of their sistem, but still... ideas? comments?? Or come December, should I offer this up for sporking??

Speaking off!!!! *runs off to dust and polish her own spork*

This is my torrent DL list right now: ]A lot of mst3k tv episodes, Repo, the Rocky Horror Picture Show and Plan 9 from Outer Space.... yes, all of them at the same time..... yes, by the time they finish DL I'll be on ER duty and sleep deprived....

Oh well, I never said I enjoyed being sane.

I'm having the best day in a long time. See, I asked for a couple days off work, thursday and friday, and I came back to my parents house for a long weekend. Wich also means coming back to civilization!!! You know, movie theaters, good coffe, department stores. Hair salons.

( I really needed to talk to some people, without feeling awkward about it. That doesn't happen in my usual middle of nowhere. )

All in all, GOOD TIEMZ!!!

Basically, if sometime in the future the CERN particle accelerator has managed to recreate a Higgs particle, this event will have been such an abomination that it might ripple backwards in time to stop the experiment before it happens. Wich may explain why CERN has had such a run of bad luck.

God, I love quantum physics madness.

Yanked from halflight007. Bold all the ones you've done, substract them from 100%...

( my inoccence percentage: 64.... I thought it'd be less.... )

Well, I'm bored..... I've been stuck in the ER since 8:30 this morning, still have 6 hours to go, and I haven't seen anything more interesting than a sore throat.


I haven't been to the Hetalia kink meme for a looong time (since the first kink_aid stopped updating in fact). So, my lovey f-list, I need links to any and all kink fics that you feel are link-worthy, please!!! (no angst for now, and smut is OK, nay, a must!! as no one else in here reads english anyway. XD)

Pretty please??? I'll give you waffles!!! With Maple Syrup!!!

EDITED because apparently boredom turns me into a typo making machine... I sounded like a lol-cat!!!

I was doing some research on the subject of hell for my NaNoWriMo idea, because I'm bored like that and I'm on duty 'till midnight today, and I found something rather cool...

( Mayan and Aztec hell.... this sounds familiar )

Back to work I guess!!!.... running the ER with a slight fever and a runny nose, I wonder what level of hell that's considered as.... </whines>

Yes I'm happy in my current job. It's stressful and tireing and sometimes monotonous, with really bad hours; my confidence in my own abilities goes up and down like the tides, and I swear human beings are the most stupid beings ever; but yeah, I like my job. It's challenging, and I usually get a good laugh from one or two patients a day which makes me feel good. And I like my coworkers, mostly.

Is it my dream job?.... I dunno.... my dream job would probably be to work on one of those travel-shows, where they take you to all this exotic places and pay you to stay at fancy hotels and eat weird food. Although, if we're talking DREAM job, I wanna be a wizard!!! Oh, or a ninja!!! XD

Now, 5 or 10 years from now I hope to be a pediatrician.... or maybe a pediatric psychiatrist, I'm not sure. And yeah, I'm mostly on my way. My current job allow's me to try out for specialization scholarships after three years on the public service, and guarantees me a job afterwards in the same service that sent me to study and paid for it. And I've been told we have a shortage of pediatricians, so yeey!! XD

Well, I did it. I just signed up for NaNoWriMo.

Yup, I must be crazy. Let's see where this takes me, shall we?!!

Am I more boyish or girlish?

YOUR BOY SIDE:

[ ] you love hoodies
[X] you love jeans
[X] dogs are better than cats
[ ] it's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[ ] you've played with/against boys on a team (In grade school.)
[ ] shopping is torture (If it's clothes shopping, yeah.)
[X] sad movies suck
[ ] you own a XBOX,
[X] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega
[X] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers (I was in love with Blue Ranger, does it still count?? ^^)
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[ ] gory movies are cool
[ ] you used to go to your dad for advice
[ ] you have at least 1 trophy of a sport (I guess Chemistry Olimpics do not count)
[X] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh/Pokemon
[X] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[ ] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[X] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[X] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[ ] sports are fun
[X] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[ ] you sleep at night with your socks on
[X] you have fished at least once

TOTAL= 11

YOUR GIRL SIDE

[X] you like to shop
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[ ] you wear the color pink
[ ] you go to your mom for advice
[X] you consider cheerleading a sport (Hey, I've never done it but it's HARD maan!!)
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[X] you like going to the mall
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[ ] you like wearing jewelery
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[ ] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] you don't like the movie Star Wars (ARE YOU KIDDING?!!)
[X] you are/were in gymnastics
[ ] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed (I get out of bed 10 minutes before I get in work, and still make it on time)
[X] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] you like wearing dresses
[ ] you like wearing body spray/deodorant
[ ] you like high heel shoes (OUCH)
[X] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything

TOTAL: 6

And if they had added a Nintendo Wii, I woul've been even more boyish.... WHY ARE ALL THE NERDY STUFF MADE TO BE BOYISH?!!!

Because I was way too bored last night, slightly feverish, and waiting for the latest Supernatural episode to download.

(btw, I'll post this to the Slash Talk comm, but I am expecting some html fail because I wrote this in word first, so sorry if the cut doesn't work and I spam your f-lists for a while)

( This was done with love in mind.... love and Tequila )

Comments and additions are love!!!